In any creative learning endeavour, you rarely achieve exactly what you set out to achieve. The imagination is fluid, and shapes the product as the journey progresses.
Fortunately, what comes out is never a Frankenstein creation. Instead, it will be an elegant beast -- a cumulation of the journey. It may have some flaws, and to the outside observer, may look downright scary. But it has its pearls of wisdom to share, and most important, it is yours.
Be sure to hug your monster today.